Tuesday, November 15, 2011

To My Birthday Boy

Dear Gunnar Miles,

Has it been a year already?
Since you came into our lives?
I can't think of a better day to celebrate than the day God gave me you. The greatest gift I've ever known is being "Mama" to you.

My Little One Year Old...
I love how you try to repeat what I say without fear of doing it wrong.
I love how your nose wrinkles and makes an x at the bridge and you breathe quick exhales through it when you think something is super funny.
I love your emphatic head nod and the arms that sometimes go with...and how you nod even to questions that weren't directed to you or sometimes for no reason at all.
I love your prideful "touch down!" when you want to show it off.
I love your Snake sounds and tongue and the animal sounds ("Baa" for Sheep, "Hoo" for owl, "fff" for puppy)  you love to share with anyone who'll listen.
I love how you say "UP!" and "DOWN!" when in an elevator. You excitedly point to the lighted numbers and often get the direction right (that's when I think you're a baby genius).
You love to put things away, or rather different places. I'll find books in drawers and shoes in shelves, but I love your helpful nature.
You love to point at the kitties and laugh at their silly ways...I love how you say "K-tee" and pat them oh so gently.
 I adore your cheerful kisses even though they're usually wet.
And snuggles can be rare but only because you're busy. But when I get them it warms my heart completely.

 The most surprising thing about you is your platinum hair.  Some people say it's even clear, it's so blonde.
Most people are surprised to see your mouth full of teeth...7 total: 4 on top and 3 underneath
Your eyes are dark and blue and most beautiful when you wear navy.
You are long and thin and I can't believe you're mostly wearing 18 month size clothes.
Your feet are huge, you're already wearing size 5 shoes.

You'll never know how much you've changed and taught us in your 12 mere months of life.
I never understood the meaning of unconditional love until you came into my life. You've taught me how to love and love BIG without need for anything in return.
You've given me the greatest joys and filled me with more pride than I have ever known.
Your smiles and contagious laughter are more precious to me than the stars and the moon and all the treasures of the world. You are my sunshine, you are my precious son.

I love you Gunnar Miles. Happy 1st Birthday!

I woke up this morning and read your birth story and thanked God for bringing me you.

Sunday, November 6, 2011

This Holiday Season...

I've decided to commit myself to small companies this season.
As a mom with a very small (yet growing) business I think it's important to support other people like me...who are trying to support their families in any way they can, through their art.

So I'm making a commitment to purchase most of my holiday gifts this year from small businesses and shops (like those on Etsy) or at local shops here in Chicago. This probably means I need to think ahead and buy things a lot sooner than usual (since I'm a last minute shopper) but I really think my friends and family will appreciate less commercial gifts. And I'll be happy knowing the majority of my money is going directly to a person rather than a corporation.

Have you checked out Etsy.com lately? Let's start a trend...Support small businesses this Holiday Season!

Here are some fun things I found today:

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

Our relationship...

When things get serious around here between G and I...( he starts getting cranky or fussy or another one of those "negative baby behavior terms")... I tend to deal with it one of two ways.

1. I get cranky, fussy or irritable with him
2. I get silly

I don't know why I don't always remember that #2 is almost always the way to go...but I really should. Because that is what makes our relationship so fun! Gunnar starts whining and I start fake sneezing or do a song and dance number  or (the latest fad) mimic his whining and all of a sudden Mr.Cranky pants turns into Mr. Giggle pants and we're having a knee slapping good time! It works everytime...even at the grocery store!

This is one part of our relationship I hope will never completely change. I can only hope that when Gunnar is fully grown, and if we ever get into an argument, that we part with cracking jokes and rolling on the floor laughing. There is nothing I love more in this world than hearing him laugh.

P.S. Did I mention he likes to take off his shoes...we lost one of his "expensive" shoes the other day and nearly lost another today...it's a hard life keeping track of all the things I put on this kid from day to day now that he knows how to take it all off!

One Million Things...

I am not joking when I say that I have one million things that I have going through my head on a daily basis. Or at least it feels that way. Even my lists can't keep up with all the things I want to get done...
Here is a small sampling of things I've thought or worried about today:

1. Money
2. Bills that are in dispute because they should be covered by our insurance but somehow weren't
3. Making Christmas owl ornaments
4. Making Christmas owl pillows
5. Making Fancy Christmas/Holiday Owl cloaks and hats for baby girls
6. Doing more Research for my play
7. Reading the novel that's feeding ideas for my play
8. Auditions? Any more auditions to summit for?
9. Sold another shirt
10. I need to buy more shirts for my Etsy supplies
11. I'm running out of clothing labels
12. buy more clothing labels
13. My house is a mess
14. What are we going to do with all of these toys?
15. Making personalized birthday sweaters for boys for my etsy shop
16. Should we get Gunnar another smash cake for his real birthday even though we celebrated his birthday with family this weekend?
17. I need to finish those shutterfly books I started 4 months ago...
18. new hangers for my closet...
19. I didn't buy enough hangers
20. crap I just found a coupon for the store that I spent $80 at today...I guess I should go back tomorrow and get that adjusted...crap
21. Sold a bunch of my clothes to resale shop...$92
22. She rejected a bunch of nice clothes...I need to find another resale shop that buys and make some more money
23. laundry...endless laundry
24. trash...so much trash and recycling...why do we get so much junk mail?
25. Gunnar is so big now
26. He's practically running before he completely walks
27. I hate spending money
28. Another 2 shirts sold in my shop...I need more shirts...
29. We wanted to go to CT and meet our new nephew...but not sure that will happen now that they're trapped in snow without power...
30. Should I have 2 female leads in my play or just 1?
31.  Jobs...I need to look for more teaching jobs..
32. Maybe I should get certified in Fitzmaurice technique...or Alexander....or ...
33. I need to work on that fellowship application
34. Ugh I need to vacuum
35. When did I last feed Gunnar?
36. I wonder if it's okay to start giving G whole milk...
37. I need to make G's 1 year check up appointment
39. I have 10 more things of Kathy's to list on etsy
40. I need to take photos of the 20+ items I made last month to list on Etsy...
41. I need to get out coats and sweaters to send to baby Charles
42. It is so annoying to type on a computer that has a broken delete button
43. I need to organize my Etsy supplies and closet...desperately
44. We have no food...I need to grocery shop
45. The car is a disaster from our trip to the cabin...how can I clean it out with Gunnar?
46. I need to work on those shirts that sold...
47. Why am I still awake?
48. Tomorrow is Ghafir's birthday...
49. I need to write thank you notes for G's birthday presents before I forget
50. I should take down these Halloween decorations
51. I need to make an appointment for Gunnar's 1 year pictures
52. How do people have full time jobs and have a family? I don't get how I would have the time...but I think I want to do that...I think...eventually...
53. I still think we have too much stuff...
54. We need to either get rid of things or think about renting a bigger place soon...
55. I hate cleaning G's baby seat...I need to just give in and get rid of it all ready
56. I need to make new tags for my shop
57. Oh crap I forgot we need a new printer...I need to look for new printers
58. I need to find Gunnar some new soft/walking shoes since we lost one this weekend
59. Why don't we have any ice cream in this house?


and my mind keeps on going...and going...

 ...for your viewing pleasure...Gunnar's 1st Halloween and 1st Hair cut!